Magical Christmas

I don't care upon the presents
underneath the Christmas tree;
I won't hang my stocking up
there upon the fireplace...

Christmas has never been a celebration to me
nor a festive to cherish upon...
Yet this year Christmas
You make the festive a worthwhile wait

We may not standing under the mistletoe
But the magical Christmas never fade
It brings the heart apart grows closer...

I just want you for my own
more than you could ever know;
make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...

I knew you were aside this Christmas
and that's all I want...

如果我忘了

如果我忘了，你还会记得吗

那天的告别后很多事都不能从来
於是我都试着从组凌乱的回忆

每天早上整理床单不忘把Peddington Bear摆好
放工都抽时间与同事运动跑步
小鹿最好不要太肮脏
每天喝多点水，一天只限一杯咖啡
开始花些心思为自己准备丰富的佳肴
好好地疼惜我的胃
出外旅行尽量少吃煎炸食物

我都一一地记着你的吩咐关怀
虽然你已不在
虽然我仍深信你我仍感受着同样的曙光

可是忙碌的生活
似乎渐渐剥夺那仅剩下的思念
我开始害怕有天我会忘了对你的感觉

有天我的怀念真的被时间磨灭了
你是否还记得我

在家吃泡面的周末

下雨的周末
从新加坡回来至今下的第一场雨

天气阴阴，空气冷冷
再加上一盘热腾腾的泡面
感觉上好舒服好温暖

感觉上已经好久没好好地周末在家
躲进安乐窝里头
边听音乐边看书
听着Cobby Cailat & Jason Marz 的Lucky
感觉上这首歌很有归属感
特别喜欢这句
“Lucky I'm in love with my best friend, lucky to have been where I have been, lucky to be coming home again...”
不过好友也仅可以喜欢不需在一起
因为只有友情才是无限期的

再看《The Proposal》来消遣我的周末
超喜欢这部浪漫爱情喜剧片
一部我不仅看一次的戏
喜欢戏里头的男主角Ryan Reynolds
更喜欢缅怀那天我们一起在戏院看这部戏的感觉
你说我邀你看的这部戏很搞笑
也因为这部戏我们开始学会用“hint”
喜欢TP因为可以借此想想你。。。

没有outing with friends没有company event没有工作的周末
在家闲着
也可以很幸福

浪漫一次就好

人家说身在异国特别有情趣
因为少了世人投下的奇异眼光
因为不需对旁人一一交待
因为遇见熟人的机率似乎是百分之一

如果出国旅行
最好保持最佳状态
如果幸运的话
也许会遇见帅哥美女也说不定
如果出国期间碰巧是浪漫洋溢的圣诞节
浪漫的爱情故事也许正萌芽着

只是有些浪漫只允许发生于异国
当下美好回忆也只是怀念
因为回国后的自己
仍要对身边的人与事交待

所以有些浪漫
拥有过一次就好了

枕头

其实每天晚上陪我睡的枕头好舒服
好让我寻回久违的思念

还以为这不失弹性的枕头会让我安枕无忧
每晚都发甜梦

只是噩梦还是不招而来
梦里有你、有我、也有她
其实梦里的我们都很好

我却巴不得快点梦中惊醒

回到我的现实世界
没有你们只有我的世界。。。


只是有时候我还是舍不得用完你曾买的牙膏
想想你庞大的双手按着我头
然后摇头笑我傻的样子

也许我真的有点傻
傻傻地对着回忆里的我们傻笑

回到原点

起点
我们只不过是擦肩而过

即使碰面也不该跨过线

我们原本就该安分守己
扮演着已被安排好的角色

只是默契在作怪
犹如一股勇气怂恿着
我们触碰那不该跨的线

其实我们都知道走远了的代价
就得在两者之中取舍
你选择了过去的回忆
我选择了我的未来

故事的后来没有开花也没有结局

悬崖勒马走回原点
也许会让我们更看清自己当初应守的岗位

原来友情比较适合我们

看着你们戴着四方帽欢呼雀跃时
我才突然发现我已经毕业一年了

看着你终於戴上四方帽
原来久违的不只是我们
还有我们曾经追求的感觉

好久不见了
我们都好吗？
尴尬的一句问候
有谁又晓得我们曾经可以无所不谈
我们之间的距离怎么却越拉越远

其实你我都没有错
只是我们还学不会相处
兜了一圈
也许友情比较适合我们

一年前的我们，也许是美丽的邂逅
一年后的我们，也可以是个完美的句号

就让青色乌龟维持着我们的友情吧。。。

I'm glad to seeing you again...

当常在心看见得得的牵着女友时

当常在心发现她的好友得得的牵着女友时，常在心竟然心酸酸地。。。
她深怕当她不开心时
得得的不再如昔日般第一时间出现在她身边安慰她
她深怕得得的不再说些冷笑话逗她开心
她深怕当她需要一个肩膀哭泣时
得得的的肩膀已不再是她的专用权力
她深怕当她生病无力时
得得的无法如往常般对她呵护照顾
不再每天准时简讯通电问候病情
她深怕当她想找人聊天时
得得的也许不能再陪她通宵褒粥
她深怕失去了得得的的关心

常在心突然发现得得的已不可以是她24小时ON CALL的朋友

突然我也深怕我会在你心中失宠
也许当我想找个人看戏时
你不可以是我的首选了
你说如果有天我不再单身
就不会常找我逛街吃饭聊天了
结果我开始担心爱情的开始会是我们友情的句号
我仍希望有你陪我逛街吃饭看戏褒粥
我不想失去你对我的好
我承认我自私
爱情友情我都要！




虽然得得的与常在心最后是牵着手的恋人
But that's not what I'm trying to convey at here =P

最近比较忙

最近比较忙
一星期七天都工作
三十一天没放假

原来生活忙碌的时候
时间不知不觉就溜走了

每天睁开眼就上班
下班自己弄晚餐
要不找些朋友聊天
一天的4/3又过完了

最近除了工作
还是工作
。
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。
。
。

原来忙碌的时候
生活可以很充实
生活可以只为钱
生活可以累了就睡，睡醒再做

生活也可以不需要爱情

我怀念的

我怀念
有个傻傻的男孩
总是会与我说些有的没有的
而我总是装着一副不在乎的样子
然后再偷偷地傻笑自己的倔强

我怀念
每一次带着疲惫的身躯回家时
有个陪我吃饭聊那该死的client
然后再为咱们被老板训的样子而傻笑

我怀念
陪我吃意大利餐
陪我看爱情浪漫戏剧篇
陪我哭笑的XX

我怀念
一个了解自己的XX
知道我起床第一间事就是扭开MyFM听阳光灿烂
知道我会因为简单的感动而流泪
知道我沉默的时候不代表我在发脾气
我只是想让嘴巴休息而已

我怀念
每天收到简单的关心简讯
每晚有个让我说晚安的XX

我怀念
一个拥抱
你。。。知道吗？



原来听孙燕姿的《我怀念的》后
眼角还是会含泪

莫名的思念

张震悦说思念是一种病
我想我应该是莫名奇妙地中了毒

莫名地思念
可以天马行空
也可以很不实际

就喜欢穿蓝色衬衫的你
带着一种幽默
有着牵引我视线的力量

我在人群中发抖
你从人群中调高冷气温度
我在人群中发问
你从人群中给了一个肯定

严肃时候的你
有点畏惧
但认真的你却是一种魅力

我从人海茫茫里看到你
你会否却把我给流失于人海中了？？

友情也需要空间

友情之所以美丽
它没有保鲜期，效用一辈子

但如果你渴望的友情
包括关心我的一切，我的A to Z的话
我会屏息于我们的友情
一段被所谓的关怀塞满而毫无空间可言的友情

如果说朋友之间的嘘寒问暖
包括干涉生活的每一个步伐的话

我只渴求你在我们之间的友谊里
掏出一些些私人空间给我

单纯的十八

十八岁
有着挥霍不尽的疯狂

成人的脸孔洋溢着傻乎乎的幼气

那年的憧憬、很简单

对友情与爱情都存着单纯的冲动
追求一个十八岁所坚信的美好未来

十八岁的天空下
整个宇宙可以换来一个思念
用不尽的疯狂可以促成一股勇气

那年的十八岁，很清新、单纯

那年的单纯与勇气
怎么却耗尽了呢？

空窗期

分手了但暂时又没有心情或合适的人再投入心的恋情，这就意味着正出于空窗期。

这些年的单身自由，无拘无束的轻松似乎已演变成了毫无归属感的恐惧。虽然说，一个人的生活可以很自在，不需顾虑另一方到底喜不喜欢自己的发型而拼命剪短发再染发，有些人甚至不需刻意打扮，因为他们觉得打扮也没人看，渐渐地也成了干物女。当然，像我这个爱美的女孩，没有了爱情，反而更学会打扮，提升自己的市场嘛！哈

单身期间虽然不间断地搞暧昧，最后却一个个告吹。原因很简单，对于他们，就是缺乏了一股想谈恋爱的冲动！结果我的空窗期不知不觉已长达了两年，呵呵~

再结果，我与友人就立下我们2009之愿 - 趁2009还没结束前，一定要结束我们的单身生活。
>>.<<
他说他一定要找个女朋友，好让自己工作累了，就会有个女友帮他按摩。。。
我说我要找个男朋友，即使身边的朋友都没空，至少还有一个肯掏出他的睡眠时间，夜阑人静时分，到车站接我回家。。。
虽然这些要求很简单，但他/她们却是我们的精神之驻，也是牵动着我们心灵的一份归属感。

不单身的朋友，会劝我们好好享受一个人的自由，他们何尝也不是周末都要男/女友陪。。。
单身的我们其实也只想找个可以哭的肩膀。。。
而我存脆想重拾恋爱的感觉~

你．我．他

总是记不起你的模样
唯有凭着那些感觉，从记忆里探索仅剩下的模糊样子
个子比我高，我依稀记得

回忆总是无意间走向那天的昧意
也许，你让我想起了他
你们总是这个样子逗我笑
这种语气开始第一个话题
再以熟悉的态度舒缓僵硬的局面

你唤起了久违却又熟悉的感觉
字行间却开始出现思念的字迹

只是
因为他的影子，才有你的存在
还是你，唤起了对他的回忆

也许你我之间根本不需要他

劳动节@WORK

今天我的FS又找我做part time, RM200 一天， 结果被他说服一下下，我又答应了。。。没办法，谁叫我＂发钱汉＂ >.<
超不喜欢那份工，还记得上一次，做完后，朋友还得听我在电话旁数对client的不满，然后坚决的说不再接那间公司的工，结果。。。还是钱再做怪,sigh!!! 你们是不是很看不起我叻 =P
唉，生活不就是这个样子，为了生活，什么气都要受的啦。。。就当作是生活的磨炼吧！
看着我的FS们每个礼拜被shoot的样子，他们似乎都不再需要避弹衣了，个个都好像没失去知觉了。。。生活就只是这个样子吗？

共工假期已经约了朋友，结果又得放他半个飞机，延迟了晚餐，缩短了见面时间。。。还好他不是我男友，不然。。。哈！

还记得上个月的Bangkok之旅，看着当地居民的生活，突然庆幸自己在这里的生活，至少没他们贫困，生活没他们辛苦。。。结果，回马一个月后，老毛病又发作了。。。朋友说得对，时不时去下贫困国家，体验他们的生活方式，做人就不再存有诸多不满，对么？
改天再回顾我的Bangkok Trip吧！还蛮喜欢泰国^-^

我的回忆不是我的

当我们从新开始找话题时，之前冰山似乎已溶化了。。。
说什么回忆，其实我们之间剩下的，都成为过去式。。。
歌词里头的 “ 回忆不再受制于我，我承认，回忆也许你的 ” ，此歌词告诉我那些回忆根本不属於我的，连琐碎的片刻回忆都保不住。。。不会再在意你是否还记得我们的曾经，回忆或许是你的，但绝对不再是我们的。。。因为我们俩不再需要那些回忆

所以很喜欢这首《我的回忆不是我的》
Those memories will never be mine。。。in fact it never was。。。
I'll search my own。。。and let it be a memory worth pondered。。。eventually。。。

原来那套着我们承诺的戒指。。。早已弄丢了。。。或许承诺早已从我们不适合的缝隙里溜走了。。。

拜拜。。。不属於我的~

It's Been A While

Being claimed for getting thinner lately, before I realize, a remark of I'm losing my gloss ensue...as I look exhausted..sigh~

Yet, I just love both caption...
It's been a while...I never find myself in that way...

Selfishness

Self-centred may be defined in various way.
Perhaps in the sense of how you look at it.
Each and everyone of us inevitably lurks some fraction of selfishness in ourselves.
Just that its level may be varied, it depends on how self-absorbed you are in order to protect yourself.

Some people choose to keep using the word "sorry" to cover it all,
while others remain stubborn for the sake of their dignity.
Some may be regarded as inconsiderate for their harsh remark,
while I would rather regard them as being up front and honest about their own perspective.
And Yes, I don't fond of those who never ceases to say "sorry",
the word "sorry" will eventually loses its effectiveness if it is repeating.

Been struggling with a decision that I've made and the consequences.
Perhaps in the eye of them, I am being inconsiderate.
Perhaps at this point, I am being self-centred for letting go a friendship.

Perhaps, I just wish you guys to be tolerate as you guys have expected on me...

问号又问号

电台播的首首歌
与你曾相处的画面一一浮现

丝丝的感觉仍回荡着

反覆自问
我对你没感觉吗

你们都问我不后悔吗

如果我说心里最挂念的
却远在地球的另一方
你会相信吗

你是否会后悔这些日子的付出呢

喜欢可以感觉奥妙
我也搞不清你我曾否存此感觉
？？？

It's Just A Matter of Time

We met each other,
some time ago;
You make deep impact,
yet I never know.

静茹这样唱着
我坚持的，还值得坚持吗
我所相信的，会是真的吗

错过了
下一站，我们会再遇见。。。

It's just a matter of time
before we say how do you do again~

反复地重温那些少得可怜的片段
也是保温着。。。你的回忆

如果你也听说

收音机播张惠妹的《如果你也听说》，DJ又接着说，已分手的男女是否会想起曾经牵我们手的那个他/她呢？

曾几何时，这一首歌都有种催泪夺眶而出的力量。。。那时候的心特别脆弱吧~

今天收到一个朋友的问候，我与她虽然都不怎么熟，却让我好感动。
她，让我想起了他。。。

虽然我没资格再要求你对我有任何关怀，然而某些日子，我的影子有否曾出现在你脑海里？如果你也听说，你还会想起吗？哪怕只是一份钟。。。
现在的我，不会再为某些歌而流泪，也不再因你而沮丧。。。因为我想彻底地把你从我脑海里删除。。。
只是久违的她唤醒了你的记忆，原来你我的确曾是历史，历史终究还是曾演绎过，你还是藏在我脑海里的某个角落。。。那个不起眼的角落。。。有天，那个角落会被取代。。。

有人问我最近开心吗？
我还是我，看喜剧听冷笑话仍会大笑一番，与朋友还是会疯狂嘻哈。
只是心被掏空后，都好像没什么特别开心了。。。那些被感动的快乐去了哪里？
那些恋爱的感觉到底又是什么滋味呢？

其实。。。我不忙

其实我回覆简讯的时间
远比你睡觉的时间还要多

你的手机总是静静地等

我回覆的字语总是谨慎万分
深怕文字的不妥
产生不必要的误会

其实
我不忙
只是不懂要以怎样的形式
去面对你而已

请原谅我的自私。。。

CNY 。Reunion 。A Grin

团圆饭之丰富

An auspicious reunion dinner
除了美味佳肴
Apart from its satisfying feast
即是游子们丰富的回家心情
It's buzzing with the home-coming excitement
享用团圆饭也咀嚼着家人的呵护与思念
While tucking into the dinner
a family's care and love are felt

Everyone is clad in red, embracing the festive spirit

A kid's grin, the sweetest

Btw, she is my adorable little cousin sis, damn 'kap siao' ^-^

年初六，六六大顺
愿大家满怀过年心情至元宵吧！
6th day of CNY
may the spirit of festivity is in the air throughout the whole 2 weeks

又是一个祝福 ○ 生日快乐

曾经
他们很重视女孩的生日
费尽心思 ，就想送个别出心裁的礼物
废寝忘食 ，亲手做个独一无二的礼物
为的 ， 也只想赢取一个笑容

收获礼物的女孩
开心 、 欢笑 、感动
却赢不回一个心动
心动或许不需花心思
心之感动即心动
心之不动仅感动

又是一年一次的大日子
没有费尽 、没有心思
没有废寝 、 没有忘食
仅有个祝福。。。祝你生日快乐！！

I'm screwed!!!

Have you ever keep losing your handphone because of your carelessness? And it could happen for 3 times in 3 years, in a row, to the certain extent that you dare not purchase a new handphone anymore...phew!

Have you ever forgot your password? Email password, msn password, even an atm password! Your forgetfulness leave you no choice, but to create a new email/msn and end up paying in order to have a new atm card!!

Have you ever fail to locate your car in the mall carpark? Even though you remember the location number, yet keep messing up with the indication color, ending up spending more than 20 minutes to realize that you are actually going to the opposite direction of the place you park! wth

Have you ever encounter the silliest scenario, when you fall asleep and totally forget that you are actually boilling water?!!?? And the kettle turn out to be a black-burnt kettle and has to bid goodbye to you for no longer able to serve you anymore. -_-!!!!!

Have you ever bring your camera for the sake of capturing pictures, but forget to bring along the memory card and battery??!!?? Or bringing a laptop around just to find out that you left your laptop adapter at home?

Well, that's me. And hell I know I am screwed!!
I am afraid that I might end up forgeting to bring along the wedding ring during my wedding! For a 'dai tou ha' like me, it might happen, right?? >_< OMG! Fainted...

Is there any remedy to cure my contant-forgetfulness??

无题

很喜欢友人部落的这一番话，
“人，赤裸裸地出生在这个世界上，直到百年归老的那一刻，连半点尘埃也带不走。”

这句话，倒是写得潇洒利落。如我有那一半的正能源，或许我会找到我自己。

人生短短几十年，如我能活到一百岁的话，那我也已经过完了人生的四分之一(如果我真的可以活到一百岁)。既然我们都带不走这世上的一切，为什么还要为这世上所发生的事物而懊恼呢？
现实不如梦想，我们就得屈服于现实的残酷。我们总希望陪我们一起老的那一个，会是我们的最爱，有多少个真的有这个福气呢？既然事事都不能如我们所愿，每年生日还许什么愿？读着这段文字的你们，可不可以告诉我，这些年来许的愿望，有曾实现吗？

If only I could

When we were apart,and we seemed far away
We used to hanging on at the same point,crossing the same line
Yet,we just walked by
Letting our emotion in disguise
We never know we were there once

Now we are here,and there is no distance between us
But we sail in different direction
No meeting point is heard
And our voyage has no similarity

Perhaps our path is shaped,at the very first place

If there is a time
When our eyes were met
I shall freeze the moment,saying how do you do

If there is a place
Where the sky is not cloudy
I shall shower you with warmth,bringing you joy in spring

If only I could...

累┃泪

累，可以来自不同的形式
欲哭无泪也是一种累

Engineer BF, best among the best! (HUH????!!!!?? my personal expression though)

Come across this article from a forum,I feel indebted if I don't share this with others,as most of my fellow friends are engineers.

Let me tell you why girls should eventually marry an engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the rest of the graduates.

Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle
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An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle. At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable job that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too.

Law graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in law firms. Most management graduates have just failed on their first business plan. The arts graduate is still looking for a job. And the medical school graduate is still living in a hospital.


Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness
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An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable amount of his time and effort to understand you. Engineers are trained really hard to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand women too, just like how they understand their work, once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on
trying. Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method to keep you happy (e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.) And once they find out the secret formula, they will just keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear.

Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you.The Management graduate who will try to control your spending, The Arts graduate who will 'change major'. And the medical school graduate who will operate on you.

And you know what, it's really so easy to make engineers believe that You are the 'one'. Say that you like one of their project and they will be hooked to you forever.


Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust
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Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others -
The lawyers will lie about everything. Management graduates will cheat your money. The arts graduate will flirt, and you probably just look like another cadaver to the medical school graduate. Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and even if he does, he is too dumb to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find - rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and please you, has no time for affairs, and too dumb to lie to you.

So,to those my engineers friends out there,does it sounds sarcastic or a compliment to you? Well, I dated engineers before, in fact, even my buddies were engineers too.Well,I just can't help hanging around with those people as I'm one of those engineering student...ONCE...
I personally not totally agree with those advantages that an engineer possess.
1. Secure lifestyle = bored
Not every engineer is highly-paid.Perhaps those offshore engineers or engineers that involve in oil&gas industry enjoy higher income.Else,engineer is just another ordinary profession out there with endless OT and datelines to meet.
In terms of their personality,I sensed that most engineers are not always prefectly groomed.Sad,isn't it? Of course,there will always an exception.But I hardly bumped into a gorgeous engineer nonetheless.So far,at least.

2. Unmatchable industriousness = lack of creativity
If every engineer tend to apply the same formula to please their partner as what they did in their profession,that would be disastrous! OMG! Can you imagine that you are having the same surprise during your valentine,your birthday,your anniversary,etc all over again for the next few years?? Yet,girls are the emotional creature.As long as you are able to win her heart,they don't really care whether is the same old method being used again or not.Am I right??
However,I do see some of my engineer friends are able to come out with an abundance of creative,heart-warming idea just to impress their beloved partner.For their tireless effort,they earned my salute for them.

3. An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust = bullshit!
Perhaps we should put it in that way.Chances of engineers flirting with their colleagues are lesser due to the fact that most engineers are guy,some even in their late 30s,40s. Whether they will betray you or not,it's more likely depend on their faith in a relationship,rather than their profession.

Despite of that,I can't help but wonder,what would it be if we date a pharmacist?
Rob? Any comment? ...LOL...

新年快乐

跨年的第一分钟
一通电话
一句问候

烟花绽放
七彩烟花的交叉下
一句祝福
新年快乐

我知道你在乎我
虽然我们只是朋友

也庆幸只是朋友

未来的以后
我依然会祝福你