Just a piece of crap of mine

When you are caught walking down the street alone, having dinner alone, shopping for your daily grocery alone, spending your christmas eve alone, spending your V-day alone, basically carrying out your daily activities ALONE 。。。

You will get two reaction from them : -
a) a shocked, surprised looking face together with a state of disbelief wondering why a gorgeous or maybe sweet girl like you will end up wandering down the street alone, the next thing you realise, they will INEVITABLY
b) console you with "don't worry girl, you will meet someone soon, at the right time. "

Yes, admittedly you have to wait for the right time for the perfect someone to come into your life. Even I have to plunged myself into that belief. Convinsed myself to have faith in love. Believing that when true love is found, it will sweep me off my feet, or even eludes me.
Or have faith in SERENDIPITY, as the meaning implies, "the faculty or phenomenon of finding something valuable or something delightful when you are not looking for it"
In short, finding something incrediblely great accidentally. I can't help but wonder, will we ever, ever meet this perfect guy of ours? Are they really exist to perfectly fit in the lost puzzle of ours?

Are they? Nope, I don't think so.
Well, you met several great guys out there, that might caught your attention, and maybe they are able to blow your mind, perhaps overwhelmed you with their wit and charm.
Then guess what? They are not even out there for you to grab! Then what's the point they being
there at the first place??!!????

I have come to realise that reality is harsh, cruel, grim and unpleasant. There is no such phenomenon as serendipity, you never bump into good fortune accidentally except you go and hunt for it. Even if it do happen in micromillion possibility, they are never be yours.
All those sayings that true love that will eventually sweep you off your feet.... is just a piece of crap! Plus, a little bit of bullshitting here and there!

Yea...i'm ranting....

兔年的运气

想想下, 我们认识了五个月++

想想下，某某节日你都不忘捎个电话给我，就连最不起眼地你也记得。。。

想想下，生病感冒喉咙痛，最关心我病情的好像只有你。。。

想想下，出外公干仍记得ceylon tea， 因为我有喝茶的习惯。。。

想想下，应该没几个同事会因为天黑而陪我到停车场领车。。。再夜也只不过是晚上九点多。。。

想想下，我还蛮怀念我们聊天时捧腹大笑的笑声。。。

想想下，从没料到职场上仍有个知心客户为朋友。。。

想想下，虽然运气一向“嘛嘛”，但一路上总算仍有贵人相助。。。

想想下，有天，我得好好谢谢您 =）

P/S：兔年愿您身体健健康康！！

12:00 AM 14092010

It's just freaking me out that i'll be spending my birthday alone...without you...
though i know my friends are around...and they have always be....

Just give me a reason to stay...
and i shall stay...

Magical Christmas

I don't care upon the presents
underneath the Christmas tree;
I won't hang my stocking up
there upon the fireplace...

Christmas has never been a celebration to me
nor a festive to cherish upon...
Yet this year Christmas
You make the festive a worthwhile wait

We may not standing under the mistletoe
But the magical Christmas never fade
It brings the heart apart grows closer...

I just want you for my own
more than you could ever know;
make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...

I knew you were aside this Christmas
and that's all I want...

在家吃泡面的周末

下雨的周末
从新加坡回来至今下的第一场雨

天气阴阴，空气冷冷
再加上一盘热腾腾的泡面
感觉上好舒服好温暖

感觉上已经好久没好好地周末在家
躲进安乐窝里头
边听音乐边看书
听着Cobby Cailat & Jason Marz 的Lucky
感觉上这首歌很有归属感
特别喜欢这句
“Lucky I'm in love with my best friend, lucky to have been where I have been, lucky to be coming home again...”
不过好友也仅可以喜欢不需在一起
因为只有友情才是无限期的

再看《The Proposal》来消遣我的周末
超喜欢这部浪漫爱情喜剧片
一部我不仅看一次的戏
喜欢戏里头的男主角Ryan Reynolds
更喜欢缅怀那天我们一起在戏院看这部戏的感觉
你说我邀你看的这部戏很搞笑
也因为这部戏我们开始学会用“hint”
喜欢TP因为可以借此想想你。。。

没有outing with friends没有company event没有工作的周末
在家闲着
也可以很幸福

最近比较忙

最近比较忙
一星期七天都工作
三十一天没放假

原来生活忙碌的时候
时间不知不觉就溜走了

每天睁开眼就上班
下班自己弄晚餐
要不找些朋友聊天
一天的4/3又过完了

最近除了工作
还是工作
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原来忙碌的时候
生活可以很充实
生活可以只为钱
生活可以累了就睡，睡醒再做

生活也可以不需要爱情

友情也需要空间

友情之所以美丽
它没有保鲜期，效用一辈子

但如果你渴望的友情
包括关心我的一切，我的A to Z的话
我会屏息于我们的友情
一段被所谓的关怀塞满而毫无空间可言的友情

如果说朋友之间的嘘寒问暖
包括干涉生活的每一个步伐的话

我只渴求你在我们之间的友谊里
掏出一些些私人空间给我

劳动节@WORK

今天我的FS又找我做part time, RM200 一天， 结果被他说服一下下，我又答应了。。。没办法，谁叫我＂发钱汉＂ >.<
超不喜欢那份工，还记得上一次，做完后，朋友还得听我在电话旁数对client的不满，然后坚决的说不再接那间公司的工，结果。。。还是钱再做怪,sigh!!! 你们是不是很看不起我叻 =P
唉，生活不就是这个样子，为了生活，什么气都要受的啦。。。就当作是生活的磨炼吧！
看着我的FS们每个礼拜被shoot的样子，他们似乎都不再需要避弹衣了，个个都好像没失去知觉了。。。生活就只是这个样子吗？

共工假期已经约了朋友，结果又得放他半个飞机，延迟了晚餐，缩短了见面时间。。。还好他不是我男友，不然。。。哈！

还记得上个月的Bangkok之旅，看着当地居民的生活，突然庆幸自己在这里的生活，至少没他们贫困，生活没他们辛苦。。。结果，回马一个月后，老毛病又发作了。。。朋友说得对，时不时去下贫困国家，体验他们的生活方式，做人就不再存有诸多不满，对么？
改天再回顾我的Bangkok Trip吧！还蛮喜欢泰国^-^

It's Been A While

Being claimed for getting thinner lately, before I realize, a remark of I'm losing my gloss ensue...as I look exhausted..sigh~

Yet, I just love both caption...
It's been a while...I never find myself in that way...

Selfishness

Self-centred may be defined in various way.
Perhaps in the sense of how you look at it.
Each and everyone of us inevitably lurks some fraction of selfishness in ourselves.
Just that its level may be varied, it depends on how self-absorbed you are in order to protect yourself.

Some people choose to keep using the word "sorry" to cover it all,
while others remain stubborn for the sake of their dignity.
Some may be regarded as inconsiderate for their harsh remark,
while I would rather regard them as being up front and honest about their own perspective.
And Yes, I don't fond of those who never ceases to say "sorry",
the word "sorry" will eventually loses its effectiveness if it is repeating.

Been struggling with a decision that I've made and the consequences.
Perhaps in the eye of them, I am being inconsiderate.
Perhaps at this point, I am being self-centred for letting go a friendship.

Perhaps, I just wish you guys to be tolerate as you guys have expected on me...

I'm screwed!!!

Have you ever keep losing your handphone because of your carelessness? And it could happen for 3 times in 3 years, in a row, to the certain extent that you dare not purchase a new handphone anymore...phew!

Have you ever forgot your password? Email password, msn password, even an atm password! Your forgetfulness leave you no choice, but to create a new email/msn and end up paying in order to have a new atm card!!

Have you ever fail to locate your car in the mall carpark? Even though you remember the location number, yet keep messing up with the indication color, ending up spending more than 20 minutes to realize that you are actually going to the opposite direction of the place you park! wth

Have you ever encounter the silliest scenario, when you fall asleep and totally forget that you are actually boilling water?!!?? And the kettle turn out to be a black-burnt kettle and has to bid goodbye to you for no longer able to serve you anymore. -_-!!!!!

Have you ever bring your camera for the sake of capturing pictures, but forget to bring along the memory card and battery??!!?? Or bringing a laptop around just to find out that you left your laptop adapter at home?

Well, that's me. And hell I know I am screwed!!
I am afraid that I might end up forgeting to bring along the wedding ring during my wedding! For a 'dai tou ha' like me, it might happen, right?? >_< OMG! Fainted...

Is there any remedy to cure my contant-forgetfulness??

If only I could

When we were apart,and we seemed far away
We used to hanging on at the same point,crossing the same line
Yet,we just walked by
Letting our emotion in disguise
We never know we were there once

Now we are here,and there is no distance between us
But we sail in different direction
No meeting point is heard
And our voyage has no similarity

Perhaps our path is shaped,at the very first place

If there is a time
When our eyes were met
I shall freeze the moment,saying how do you do

If there is a place
Where the sky is not cloudy
I shall shower you with warmth,bringing you joy in spring

If only I could...

Engineer BF, best among the best! (HUH????!!!!?? my personal expression though)

Come across this article from a forum,I feel indebted if I don't share this with others,as most of my fellow friends are engineers.

Let me tell you why girls should eventually marry an engineer over a Law, Management, Arts or Medical School Graduate. He has three distinct advantages over the rest of the graduates.

Advantage 1: Secure lifestyle
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An engineer boyfriend can provide you with a secure lifestyle. At 27 years old, an engineer probably has a respectable, stable job that gives him a high income to own a car, invest, have a comfortable life, and get married and buy a house too.

Law graduates are still working as a lowly apprentice in law firms. Most management graduates have just failed on their first business plan. The arts graduate is still looking for a job. And the medical school graduate is still living in a hospital.


Advantage 2: Unmatchable industriousness
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An engineer boyfriend will dedicate an unimaginable amount of his time and effort to understand you. Engineers are trained really hard to understand their work. You can believe that they will try really really hard to understand women too, just like how they understand their work, once they believe that you are the one. So even if they don't understand you initially, they will keep on
trying. Even if they still do not understand, they will figure out the correct method to keep you happy (e.g. buy diamond ring = 1 week's worth of happiness.) And once they find out the secret formula, they will just keep on repeating it so that the desired results appear.

Unlike the Lawyer who will argue with you.The Management graduate who will try to control your spending, The Arts graduate who will 'change major'. And the medical school graduate who will operate on you.

And you know what, it's really so easy to make engineers believe that You are the 'one'. Say that you like one of their project and they will be hooked to you forever.


Advantage 3: An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust
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Let me first tell you what is wrong with the rest of the others -
The lawyers will lie about everything. Management graduates will cheat your money. The arts graduate will flirt, and you probably just look like another cadaver to the medical school graduate. Your engineer boyfriend is either too busy to have an affair, and even if he does, he is too dumb to lie to you about that. Hence, an engineer is the most secure boyfriend that you will ever find - rich enough, will keep on trying to understand and please you, has no time for affairs, and too dumb to lie to you.

So,to those my engineers friends out there,does it sounds sarcastic or a compliment to you? Well, I dated engineers before, in fact, even my buddies were engineers too.Well,I just can't help hanging around with those people as I'm one of those engineering student...ONCE...
I personally not totally agree with those advantages that an engineer possess.
1. Secure lifestyle = bored
Not every engineer is highly-paid.Perhaps those offshore engineers or engineers that involve in oil&gas industry enjoy higher income.Else,engineer is just another ordinary profession out there with endless OT and datelines to meet.
In terms of their personality,I sensed that most engineers are not always prefectly groomed.Sad,isn't it? Of course,there will always an exception.But I hardly bumped into a gorgeous engineer nonetheless.So far,at least.

2. Unmatchable industriousness = lack of creativity
If every engineer tend to apply the same formula to please their partner as what they did in their profession,that would be disastrous! OMG! Can you imagine that you are having the same surprise during your valentine,your birthday,your anniversary,etc all over again for the next few years?? Yet,girls are the emotional creature.As long as you are able to win her heart,they don't really care whether is the same old method being used again or not.Am I right??
However,I do see some of my engineer friends are able to come out with an abundance of creative,heart-warming idea just to impress their beloved partner.For their tireless effort,they earned my salute for them.

3. An engineer boyfriend will never betray your trust = bullshit!
Perhaps we should put it in that way.Chances of engineers flirting with their colleagues are lesser due to the fact that most engineers are guy,some even in their late 30s,40s. Whether they will betray you or not,it's more likely depend on their faith in a relationship,rather than their profession.

Despite of that,I can't help but wonder,what would it be if we date a pharmacist?
Rob? Any comment? ...LOL...

***2009***

贪可爱就post上去。。。。呵呵~

Bidding Goodbye Again **2008**

It' s time to bid goodbye again...
Here comes the day to reflect upon our past year

25 of December, a day where everyone was caught up in the texting activity, wishing your beloved friends and family Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year! Yea...every year of this season, we are spending time with our love ones during christmas, at the same time we have come to realize that we are on the verge of closing our 2008 chapter and begin a brand new chapter for 2009. Yeah, let's cheers for its coming!!!

It was a worthwhile 2008 (minus my career of course) though.
Finally, it took me a year to fully complete my thesis, from preparing my proposals, raw materials, materials testing and processing at lab, trial and error, typing report to binding the whole results of a year's finding, phew~ and I am lucky it is over, at the same time, doubtful of myself whether I am willing to spend the time and effort to commit myself in this whole process all over again. Will you???

Finally, four year bachelor degree of engineering has been completed. It was a moment worth remembering upon getting my scroll on stage, although it lasted less than a minute, but it signified my four years endurance of the gruelling studies, presentations and exams had come to a halt. Afterall, learning is a never ending process, right?? Thanks to my beloved family and friends who were there to cherish the moment with me, and not forgetting my juniors, being swung into the sky can be thrilling, and unforgettable as well.

Finally, stepping foot into the society is an eventual process after graduation. This is the time, you will realize, you actually know NOTHING!!! So, what's the point pursuing tertiary education anyway?? Hah!! Just kidding. It's the time you realize that not everyone has the chance to pursue their dream job. Do you??

Finally, a dearest friend of mine has flew to Japan for the sake of her career. A friend who always be there for, who share eveything and of course always being supportive...Despite that friends come and go along the journey, true friend is definitely causing a missing part of my life puzzle.
Yet, I am glad to find out the authenticity of a friendship. Some friends are worth having, while others, you just can't help to leave them out from your chapter.

Finally, these last two days of 2008 is meant to mourn for the dreadful past relationship for the final time. The damn lock is finally wide opened again, yeah~~

Happy new year Everyone~~
To Steve,
You are definitely a super duper good guy. Wow! sounds over exaggerating, hahha...Thanks for being an avid supporter of my blog. Always appreciate your effort as my first one to leave a comment every now and then, though, somtimes, it sounds pointless, hehe...
A sincere dedication for you, your special someone will eventually come to your life AGAIN. At the mean times, get yourself sufficient time to heal...but don't ever forget your passion for love again yea ^_^

To Pay,
Hehe...we can be a funny combination though. There will be someone who appreciate your sense of humour and your personality. So, let's wait and see what's you gonna look like after half year ya! Again, thanks for always being there, for better or worse...

To Kim,
I'll always miss the moment when we gone crazy...and your laughter...and your warmest hug...
Glad to have known you at the first place, truly.
Best wishes for your never lasting relationship... and do conquer the japanese language ya! Don't ever succumb to those japanese tests and exams, gambate neh!!

To Rob,
Amazing Melacca fella, hahhaa... despite that we just know each other for the last few months, it's great to know that we share a good rapport. You are such a easy going guy whom oozes charm that is easily approachable. No wonder I always hear your name from Kim before even getting to know you. Thanks for still remembering me while I am away from KL now, yea I'll be back there again, it's just a matter of time, hehe...
Always enjoy reading your blog =>

To sai lou,
Strive hard for your final sem, obtain 4.0 again ya! Ah Do and I will be waiting you at KL... will always miss the time you were around...

And finally to Mr K & Mr D,
Thanks for the effort...truly appreaciated...and truly apologised for the disappointment that I have caused...best luck for you guys there!

只想写写

友人曾经说过
一只小鸟被关在笼子里久了，它就会忘了如何展翅高飞，忘了为自己寻觅事物。。。
一个人如果习惯于现状，就无法跳出舒适地带，为更好的将来而做出改变。。。
一段维持了许久的感情，两人相处久了，难免会分不清两人在一起到底是为了什么？是习惯了？是爱？

大多数人都害怕改变，因为我们都深怕会失去原状
然而改变却意味着更接受新的事物，接触不一样的世界
勇于改变，才会勇于追求自己的梦想
寻觅一个更适合自己的伴侣

所以他们分手了。。。

再见亦是朋友，所以他们都保持联络
这段友谊最终还是跨越至爱情
他们虽说仍陷入原状，但这段爱情似乎已升华至成熟与巩固的感情

兜兜转转，最了解和适合自己的，仍是那个他
或许这叫经得起考验的感情吧！ ~亲爱的，祝福你~



难道真爱就得经过这些过程吗？
经不起考验，就别谈恋爱

因为累了、不适合了、梦想不和谐了、不想因责任而在一起。。。所以就分手了
分手，其实就只有一个理由，对方已经不再爱了
这些拍拍屁股就走掉的人
他们有否试着用一分钟去体会被抛弃的感受呢？
那些睡不着的夜晚、躲在角落哭泣的日子、连梦里也有他们的影子
或偷偷地、刻意地走在他常出现的地方，为的就想偷偷地见他/她一面
有些甚至为了与旧情人吃顿饭，而刻意的装扮一番
一个仍在一旁等待着，另一方或许已经早已放下，花尽心思讨另一个他/她的欢心

这些些。。。有谁真的能大大方方地祝福他们呢？

结果搞到那些被抛弃地
成了爱情的逃亡，提升自我保护，潜意识仍抗拒爱情
即使新的他/她可以取代那些EX
欲再次堕入爱河似乎不是件容易的事了

总觉得我们俩仍少了些些。。。
抽象的、也无法诠释的些些。。。
结果我们似些朋友似些情人。。。

围绕着。。。那一些些。。。矛盾着。。。


我好像在无言乱语了 ;p

暧昧

＂没有真正到手却不能放弃的爱情，叫做「暧昧」。还停留在暧昧期的爱情，最大的好处在于，双方还在呈现自己最美好、最温柔、最善良的一面，不用想未来，只要享受现在，还不需要经历人性的真正考验，也不必为谋合彼此习惯而费尽心力。＂ - 吴淡如 -

难以启开的心 ， 或许不在于害怕再次受伤 ，而是自私地想独享别人对你的体贴温柔 ， 然后懒得去考虑那遥不可及的未来 , 也不须绞尽脑汁去配合彼此 。 。。发现不适合时 ， 又可拍拍屁股 ， 然后走掉！

暧昧 = 不必为感情负任何责任 = 最美 ？

cross THE line

Life is not always smooth along the way, that's why we need friends to help us go through it by filling up the crevice of life. Undeniably, friends do provide us a shoulder to emotionally lean on, and most of the time, our besties may consist of guys or girls. What if our best friend is the opposite gender from us, would this besties survive if we are engaged in a relationship?

A relationship survives by being transparent to each other, and here comes the importance of playing the TRUST card. You trust whole-heartedly your partner as well as their besties. They share almost everything in life before you appear in his/her life. Your partner love you as much as their freedom. There is no reason for them to stay detach with their buddies, by stating clear the line that they are merely friend, and indeed it is.

However, I can't help but wonder, are they prone to cross the line when they are having conflict with their partner? How often do people cross beyond the line when their partner disappoints them? If there is a line between friendship and a relationship,how distinct would it be? Is hanging out alone with opposite gender buddy consider cross the line when we already attached with someone? I would say no, but do we entirely trust our partner without any curiousity of what they are up with? Do we ever wonder what drive them to have a close bond yet still remain as friend? If they do share every single pieces of life, are you as their bf/gf, still remain exclusive to them? And how do we define exclusivity?
Being a loyal bf/gf, is it trust whole-heartedly on your partner will eventually grant you a happy ending?

Any idea?

Just A Life

The day begins too soon but the night ends seemingly fast

I am suppose to embrace every single day
to explore the calmness and serenity of the nature
to feel the warmth of sunlight that penetrating through
at times, it can be scorching hot

The day begin too soon
I am suppose to embrace my graduation joyously
it marks the beginning of a new journey
but I am not familiar with the journey, it's not my time yet
My right time will never be arrived
if my mind and pace do not act unanimously

Everyday goes by
Things never change if no significant move is taken
Old habits become prevalence if the intention never clear
What if the first move already become a hurdle?
Would I have the strength and fate to survive?

The night ends seemingly fast
The burden-free life is decided to call it a day
I never realize until my obligation calls

The darkness of the night will soon be lit up
by a day with lightened sky
so as mine
And that's just life...