Wednesday, December 31, 2008

初中的大哥哥

凌晨两点,电话响起,传简讯的他,三个星期前ferry里头认识的。当时的他,很有绅士风度地把他位子让给我坐,好让我没被阳光猛晒,感激感激。看着坐在一旁的他,再看着猛烈的阳光照射在他脸庞上,其实心里真的过意不去。想要与他交换位子,却被拒绝了。过后,与他闲聊后,才发现我们俩曾经在同一间小学与中学念书。其实,我第一眼就认得他了,是他不认得我这小丫头而已。

还记得初中时的我,很喜欢趁着早上班与下午班换班的时候,偷偷望下早上班的男生,哈!当时的他与他的那一班朋友,就被我们这班小妹妹视为大哥哥。而我们这些小妹妹,总觉得大哥哥好像比较有型似的,身边同龄的男生,怎么看都不起眼。可能与同龄的男生相处久了,什么优缺点都被看穿了,所以就显得不好玩吧,嘻嘻!少年情怀的少女或许就是这个样子的吧!呵呵!
由於以前常干些偷窥大哥哥们的事,所以我就对他有印象啦!我们都不曾打过招呼,不曾谈过话,连他叫什么名,我都搞不懂,他会认得我才怪!

转眼间,十年了。。。以前十多岁的大哥哥已蜕变成一个成熟稳重的男人,而我与他交谈时,不再存有少女的仰慕,感觉上好像多了一个朋友。没想到第一次与他谈话,已是十年后。。。

人生难料,我们又有多少个十年,让我们再从遇那些与我们擦肩而过的人呢?
有时候,真的不得不信缘分,所谓有缘千里来相会,无缘对面不相逢。只是,对於身边朋友的我们,有几个又是我们真的去珍惜呢?



突然心血来潮想找回中学校刊,可是就是找不到,难道搬家的时候给弄丢了?

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

***2009***

贪可爱就post上去。。。。呵呵~

New Years MySpace Comments and Graphics


Friday, December 26, 2008

Bidding Goodbye Again **2008**

It' s time to bid goodbye again...
Here comes the day to reflect upon our past year

25 of December, a day where everyone was caught up in the texting activity, wishing your beloved friends and family Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year! Yea...every year of this season, we are spending time with our love ones during christmas, at the same time we have come to realize that we are on the verge of closing our 2008 chapter and begin a brand new chapter for 2009. Yeah, let's cheers for its coming!!!

It was a worthwhile 2008 (minus my career of course) though.
Finally, it took me a year to fully complete my thesis, from preparing my proposals, raw materials, materials testing and processing at lab, trial and error, typing report to binding the whole results of a year's finding, phew~ and I am lucky it is over, at the same time, doubtful of myself whether I am willing to spend the time and effort to commit myself in this whole process all over again. Will you???

Finally, four year bachelor degree of engineering has been completed. It was a moment worth remembering upon getting my scroll on stage, although it lasted less than a minute, but it signified my four years endurance of the gruelling studies, presentations and exams had come to a halt. Afterall, learning is a never ending process, right?? Thanks to my beloved family and friends who were there to cherish the moment with me, and not forgetting my juniors, being swung into the sky can be thrilling, and unforgettable as well.

Finally, stepping foot into the society is an eventual process after graduation. This is the time, you will realize, you actually know NOTHING!!! So, what's the point pursuing tertiary education anyway?? Hah!! Just kidding. It's the time you realize that not everyone has the chance to pursue their dream job. Do you??

Finally, a dearest friend of mine has flew to Japan for the sake of her career. A friend who always be there for, who share eveything and of course always being supportive...Despite that friends come and go along the journey, true friend is definitely causing a missing part of my life puzzle.
Yet, I am glad to find out the authenticity of a friendship. Some friends are worth having, while others, you just can't help to leave them out from your chapter.

Finally, these last two days of 2008 is meant to mourn for the dreadful past relationship for the final time. The damn lock is finally wide opened again, yeah~~

Happy new year Everyone~~
To Steve,
You are definitely a super duper good guy. Wow! sounds over exaggerating, hahha...Thanks for being an avid supporter of my blog. Always appreciate your effort as my first one to leave a comment every now and then, though, somtimes, it sounds pointless, hehe...
A sincere dedication for you, your special someone will eventually come to your life AGAIN. At the mean times, get yourself sufficient time to heal...but don't ever forget your passion for love again yea ^_^

To Pay,
Hehe...we can be a funny combination though. There will be someone who appreciate your sense of humour and your personality. So, let's wait and see what's you gonna look like after half year ya! Again, thanks for always being there, for better or worse...

To Kim,
I'll always miss the moment when we gone crazy...and your laughter...and your warmest hug...
Glad to have known you at the first place, truly.
Best wishes for your never lasting relationship... and do conquer the japanese language ya! Don't ever succumb to those japanese tests and exams, gambate neh!!

To Rob,
Amazing Melacca fella, hahhaa... despite that we just know each other for the last few months, it's great to know that we share a good rapport. You are such a easy going guy whom oozes charm that is easily approachable. No wonder I always hear your name from Kim before even getting to know you. Thanks for still remembering me while I am away from KL now, yea I'll be back there again, it's just a matter of time, hehe...
Always enjoy reading your blog =>

To sai lou,
Strive hard for your final sem, obtain 4.0 again ya! Ah Do and I will be waiting you at KL... will always miss the time you were around...

And finally to Mr K & Mr D,
Thanks for the effort...truly appreaciated...and truly apologised for the disappointment that I have caused...best luck for you guys there!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

游戏规则

主动喜欢或启动游戏者
一旦游戏开始
往往都会是先宣布游戏结束的那一个

因为他们先付出感情
优先权就在於他们
这 , 是爱情的游戏规则

爱情虽不是赌赢输 却是一场赌注

被踢出局的 就是输家
输了时间 输了感情 输了信任
也输了最初的赤子之心

爱情游戏不是屡战屡胜
想赢得光采仍需要运气的眷顾

玩家或许不在乎输赢
可是 , 输得起的 , 又有几个呢?

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

一个前男友的关怀

你问我最近的她 还好吗?
她。。。快乐吗?

我说她已有了交往对象
从你眼神 我看到了安慰
你对她的歉意 随着她拥有幸福而减少

对於当初先把她踢出局的你
至今仍耿耿于怀
因为内疚
你总是待她遇见了幸福后
才寻觅自己的一片天空

她很幸福 有个在乎她感受的你

我。。。毕竟没有这个福气



★ 一个好男人,不是看他平时如何对待别人;而是分手后,他如何对待他的前女友

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

It's December Again

2.0.0.8 December
又是十二月,意味着2008已接近尾声。。。

去年,我希望自己脱离不开心的2007。。。
庆幸,2008的天空 - 晴朗,偶尔略有彩虹呢!
总算为我的2008有个交代。

朋友 - 改出国的已出国,改从国外回来的也回来
感觉上少了个知己,其实久违的知己却回来了
知心朋友就是虽距离几百万公里,却能一见如故;
相反,隔着一道墙却没什么两句,就。。。不勉强了
人生就是这个样子吧!知心的,永远就只有那几个。。。

年尾的我,却一事无成 - 失败!

Saturday, November 29, 2008

I just wanna be home~

妈妈的一句:“你就回家休息吧!” 似乎暖和了最近紧绷的情绪。。。

家。。。永远都是最好的避风港。。。我想每个人都认同吧!

最近只想躲在角落旁,越隐密越好,最好没人发现自己的存在,或许我就可以静静的,不必向全世界交代。。。

最近,伤了两个,自己同一时间酿出两个祸还是第一次。辜负了你们的好意,我也只能说对不起。。。也许你们也只是出自一份关心,也许时间也有对与错的时候,在不对的时候,一些问候都会显得多余吧!

最近,痛骂了一个不知还算不算是朋友的朋友。自认EQ不高於人,但仍尽量压抑心中的不满,好让事情不会闹到不可思议的地步,毕竟我不想另一个朋友成了我们之间的磨心。。。
然而,你仍要摊出来讲,果然,不出乎我所料,破口大骂的,就只有我一个。对你的不满已不是一朝一夕的事了,那些重复的对不起,我也开始怀疑它的效力了。。。你希望我们能如昔日般有说有笑,说真的,这好像已超越了我能力范围,也不想尽力。。。累了。。。

最近,真的累了,身心、体力都不听使唤。。。我自问没这个能力再安慰你所谓的低潮,低潮不会每个礼拜都有吧!

放过我吧!我只想回家。。。
爸、妈、弟、妹。。。真的好想你们!!
君,我也想你,呵呵!!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

梦里的温柔


猛然发现┃被人牵着走的感觉┃很舒服┃平静┃安宁
自己的右手┃放纵地┃放在你庞大的手掌里
小手拉大手┃好可爱的画面
你手掌的温度┃有种莫名的安全感┃久违的温柔
前方一片茫然┃我不畏惧┃因为有你
梦醒了┃梦中的那双手属于谁┃不懂
原来我没想象中坚强
原来一直寻觅着心灵的寄托
哪怕只是一场梦

Sunday, November 23, 2008

等待

等待。。。

落叶纷飞,陷入眼帘尽是落叶满地的季节
橙色就是一切的秋天

秋天没有春天的喜悦,夏天的热闹,冬天的冷酷
秋天却意味着寂静、安宁
是个休息的季节
也提醒着忙碌的我们
是时候放慢步伐
细细品尝大自然的美,回顾曾留下的脚印

等待秋天
憧憬。。。美好。。。











只因我爱秋天。。。


然而等待一个答案
很无奈。。。

被人期望着一个答案
亦无奈
一个等待,一个抉择
你的本钱是时间
怕只怕我的青春没那么多时间
我不能为你的等待填上句号
剩下的。。。等待。。。
或许是感情最好的考验
它也许是我们唯一的选择

或许我根本没。有。答。案。

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

亲爱的 你怎么不在我身边

这里的空气很新鲜
这里的小吃很特别
这里的lette不像水
这里的夜景很有感觉
在一万英尺的天边
在有港口view的房间
在讨价还价的商店
在凌晨喧闹的三四点
可是亲爱的 你怎么不在我身边
我们有多少时间能浪费
电话再甜美
传真再安慰
也不足以应付不能拥抱你的遥远
我的亲爱的 你怎么不在我身边
一个人过一天 像过一年
海的那一边
乌云一整片
我很想为了你快乐一点
可是亲爱的
你怎么不在身边
在一万英尺的天边
在有港口view的房间
在讨价还价的商店
在凌晨喧闹的三四点
可是亲爱的 你怎么不在我身边
我们有多少时间能浪费
电话再甜美
传真再安慰
也不足以应付不能拥抱你的遥远
我的亲爱的 你怎么不在我身边
一个人过一天 像过一年
海的那一边
乌云一整片
我很想为了你快乐一点
可是亲爱的
你怎么不在身边
 曲︰郭子
詞︰鄔裕康
編︰呂紹淳
唱: 江美琪


亲爱的,你不在的第二十一天
就如歌词般, 这里有多喧闹,有多开心,你怎么都不在我身边
我的世界总是少了你与我分享这里的喜怒哀乐
没有人在电话旁聆听心事
没人陪我三八的日子,还真的有点sienzzzzzzzz

我们这里还是如往常般,谁谁谁生日就整班一起出来庆祝生日
日子还是可以热热闹闹的。。。
大家看似一家人,这画面该很好吧??!!?
只是有些友谊已开始有了裂痕
存有裂缝的友谊,再怎么弥补都会有痕迹,对吗?
我试着去体谅他的用意,而他却不曾站在我的立场着想
只有他讲,没有我讲,做朋友是这个样子的吗?
我的容忍度可是有限。。。

告诉你,就真的那么巧
你远赴日本的那一天,另一个久违的朋友终于从英国念完书回来了
你们俩仿佛在交换位置,呵呵~
没见他两年多,还是老样子,就是胖了点
三年后的你应该不会这样吧!哈哈哈。。。
还好,两年七百多天仍冲不淡我与他的友谊
他还是把我像男的看待,而我还是句句顶着他,两个人都互不客气
而友情就是这样维持下去。。。

最近,面临些抉择,也擅自做了决定
只可惜你不在身边分享。。。

你在日本过得还好吗?



Sunday, November 16, 2008

Close friend = keeping an eyes on you??

A friend in need is a friend indeed.
What if we don't or should I say we wish they don't offer their helping hand and kindness, yet they just couldn't get it, 'annoying' would be too much for me to describe them?

A friend say hi upon seeing each other.
A close friend provide a supportive shoulder and walks with us along the journey. At times, you even have to be their spare tyre when necessary.

An annoying friend however, shows unwavering concern on you, to a certain point that their concern is too overwhelming to be handled.
They wish the best for you. Yet 'the BEST' is defined solely by them without taking into account what their friend really had in mind.
The constant attention that they pour in, inevitably, turn out to be a constant pressure on their friend. Worse still, they go to a certain extent that interfering their friend's personal life have become their friend-caring norm They try hard, yea,I'm not exaggerating, and even harder when it comes to influencing your decision-making. Not to mention trying to manipulate the whole situation that it sounds right if we follow their ideal advice.
They could be freaking out when you happen to hang out with someone that they termed not good enough for you. Needless to say, those poor friends of yours are eventually be molded into a shape which is pre-defined by these annoying plus controlling friend. Your effort in trying to change their perception on your fellow friends will prove futile, perhaps an uphill task!!

It is disheartening to learn that, they never ever feel ashamed of themselves after what they had done. In the pursuit of their unacceptable theory, they could possibly hacked into your personal life by borrowing another pair of eyes from one of your close friend, for the sake of making sure you walk according to their direction. Are they ever attempt to put themselves in our shoes? Instead of keeping an spying eyes on us????? I'll bet they never.

I happen to have this so-called close friend, and it never occur to me that he turn out to be a control-freak, which is getting on my nerves. Undeniably, his over-protective plus control freak would bring our friendship to an crashing end.

To be frank, I'm sick of you!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

祝福

十一月十日
祝你生日快乐,愿你梦想成真,愿你最好的!
虽然你给我的生日祝福足足迟了一个星期,呵呵~ 开玩笑啦

十一月里头,已过了十天,这十天我又做些了什么?
没有。。。可悲。。。
最近,似乎每个晚上都以难入眠,围绕思维的,似乎都找不到答案。。。
答案,真的还重要吗?

那天你叫我不要担心,回去好好地充电,然后再从新出发。。。但愿如此~
很多事物似乎都瞒不了你,不过还好,说你了解处女座的女生,原来真的不是盖的!

安慰的话,可以很多,决定与行动仍取决于自己。。。

祝我
早日摸清自己的目标~

Friday, November 7, 2008

曾经的暗恋

曾经暗恋的那个他
是否还对他有印象?

他的名字在手机里特别亮眼
总希望传简讯的那个都是他
他的句句关怀都烙印在脑海里
而且还会甜入心底,睡不着。。。呵呵

即使仅仅是暧昧
他的回忆却远比前任男友来得刻骨铭心
为什么呢?
因为人就这样
得不到的,往往最令人怀念
回忆永远都是最美的。。。

你们会否猛然发现
身边的那个他/她
是否真的是心中最爱的那个?
甚至会否曾那么一点点的可惜,其实不应该开始这一段感情呢?

可悲的是
我曾犯了这错误,不仅一次的那一种
眼前的,或许是最好的
但他真的适合你吗?

暗恋的
也曾挣扎着,怀疑心中是否还有他
如果你心中还暗恋着那个他/她
就别只埋藏在心里
找天两人一起吃饭、逛街、看戏。。。什么都好
你会很惊讶地发现
原来曾经在乎的他如今已成为你其中一个好友了
与他分享的,比以前更多更自然
然后渴望的仅仅是好友的关系而已
接下来当然是要保持联络,偶尔出来喝茶咯!

久违了~曾经暗恋的。。。

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

只想写写

友人曾经说过
一只小鸟被关在笼子里久了,它就会忘了如何展翅高飞,忘了为自己寻觅事物。。。
一个人如果习惯于现状,就无法跳出舒适地带,为更好的将来而做出改变。。。
一段维持了许久的感情,两人相处久了,难免会分不清两人在一起到底是为了什么?是习惯了?是爱?

大多数人都害怕改变,因为我们都深怕会失去原状
然而改变却意味着更接受新的事物,接触不一样的世界
勇于改变,才会勇于追求自己的梦想
寻觅一个更适合自己的伴侣

所以他们分手了。。。

再见亦是朋友,所以他们都保持联络
这段友谊最终还是跨越至爱情
他们虽说仍陷入原状,但这段爱情似乎已升华至成熟与巩固的感情

兜兜转转,最了解和适合自己的,仍是那个他
或许这叫经得起考验的感情吧! ~亲爱的,祝福你~



难道真爱就得经过这些过程吗?
经不起考验,就别谈恋爱

因为累了、不适合了、梦想不和谐了、不想因责任而在一起。。。所以就分手了
分手,其实就只有一个理由,对方已经不再爱了
这些拍拍屁股就走掉的人
他们有否试着用一分钟去体会被抛弃的感受呢?
那些睡不着的夜晚、躲在角落哭泣的日子、连梦里也有他们的影子
或偷偷地、刻意地走在他常出现的地方,为的就想偷偷地见他/她一面
有些甚至为了与旧情人吃顿饭,而刻意的装扮一番
一个仍在一旁等待着,另一方或许已经早已放下,花尽心思讨另一个他/她的欢心

这些些。。。有谁真的能大大方方地祝福他们呢?

结果搞到那些被抛弃地
成了爱情的逃亡,提升自我保护,潜意识仍抗拒爱情
即使新的他/她可以取代那些EX
欲再次堕入爱河似乎不是件容易的事了

总觉得我们俩仍少了些些。。。
抽象的、也无法诠释的些些。。。
结果我们似些朋友似些情人。。。

围绕着。。。那一些些。。。矛盾着。。。


我好像在无言乱语了 ;p

Saturday, October 4, 2008

十月五日 雨

又是下雨的一天。。。
雨天。。。只想懒散散地渡过。。。
思维也任性地放荡。。。

手机也特别的安静。。。熟悉的名字 ,出现的频率没以前多。。。
我们看似很谈得来 , 至少我以为是。 虽说无所不谈 , 但不是每些话都触摸心深处。。。
这也是我们仍保持朋友的原因吧!
从不奢求这简单的友谊会有任何改变。。。
对于这个朋友 ,很感激他曾伸出的缓手 , 也庆幸他的出现让我放下了一段不愉快的过去。。。
人家说相处久了 ,再真实的感觉 , 过去了 , 就只会停留在朋友阶段。
这句话 , 虽不完全正确 ,却不是完全没道理。
曾经动了心 , 却要走了一大圈才晓得这短暂的感觉就这么长 ,再也宽不了。。。
冷冷地回简讯 ,不是开始厌倦 ,只是我不能再酱自私 ,不可以再继续享受他对我的好。

挣扎了许久 , 自己的心似乎有了答案。。。

决定了 , 就不要再回头。。。

如果有天才发现我错过了 ,或许这是我们的缘分吧!

手机响了 ,熟悉的名字似乎已渐渐地被取代。。。

雨 ,终於停了。。。
雨水 , 冲走了心中的挣扎 ,
暖暖的曙光透过玻璃窗照耀着。。。
仿佛照耀着一个决定。

Thursday, September 4, 2008

那个晚上

那个晚上,

眼泪很失控地滑了下来 , 好像好久没为自己的眼睛清洗一番

我还记得那晚天气冰冷 , 连手都失控地发抖

战战兢兢地记载当时的情绪 ,寻觅着一双聆听的耳朵。。。


分手时只是感觉放弃了一段感情。。。

但是我告诉你,当你看见对象有了新的伴侣, 你才真正感觉那被人抛弃的感觉。。。

这是友人赠的一番话

他说得没错 , 我也没错 ,甚至曾经在乎的他也没错

只是万万没想过情绪 , 霎那间 , 承受如此大的起伏

对他的记忆都逐渐模糊不清了 ,又干嘛浪费我的泪水啦!

但我必须承认 , 另外一个她的出现 ,多多少少都起了影响情绪的作用。。。

我只是太高估了一个把感情当喝水的人 ,喝下去了就等上厕所 ,根本不须消化

而我却消化了太久 ,差点消化不良 -_-!!!


隔天醒来才发现 ,昨晚的确失态了 ,不好意思!

还好上天精明的安排 ,才没法与你当晚联线 ,呵呵~

Monday, September 1, 2008

暧昧

没有真正到手却不能放弃的爱情,叫做「暧昧」。还停留在暧昧期的爱情,最大的好处在于,双方还在呈现自己最美好、最温柔、最善良的一面,不用想未来,只要享受现在,还不需要经历人性的真正考验,也不必为谋合彼此习惯而费尽心力。" - 吴淡如 -

难以启开的心 , 或许不在于害怕再次受伤 ,而是自私地想独享别人对你的体贴温柔 , 然后懒得去考虑那遥不可及的未来 , 也不须绞尽脑汁去配合彼此 。 。。发现不适合时 , 又可拍拍屁股 , 然后走掉!

暧昧 = 不必为感情负任何责任 = 最美 ?

Sunday, August 31, 2008

一脚踏两船,你“扛”得起吗?

话说一个习惯于踏船的人,当同一时间出现很多船时,就会不小心一脚踏两船!

一脚踏两船已够贱,把脚踩下去后,再为自己的举止说:“其实我也不想的” 的人更贱!

一个成熟稳重,一个好动活泼
一个谦虚有礼,一个好胜心强
一个走含蓄路线,总会在一角默默地为你付出。。。
一个完全的浪漫主义者,总绞尽脑汁,时不时都会为你制造些些惊喜。。。

有些人相处时,感觉自然舒适,不需刻意的安排,简单或许也是种浪漫
有些人相处时,感觉天天新鲜,接触些有的没的,惊喜有时还蛮浪漫的

两个完全不一样的人,怎样算,也算不出一个平衡点
再算下去,对大家都不公平

我自认不是个惯于踏船的人, 都享受着独游大海的自由
For the time being,我仍不想上船。。。

Although I'm risking myself of losing two boats at the same time~

我扛不起一脚两船这重任,因为我怕被掩死,呵呵~

Thursday, August 28, 2008

080808 _毕业咯


so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
where we're gonna be when we turn 25
i keep thinking times will never change.
keep on thinking things will always be the same
but when we leave this year we won't be coming back
no more hanging out cause we're on a different track
and if you got something that you need to say
you better say it right now cause you don't have another day
cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
these memories are playing like a film without sound
and i keep thinking of that night in june
i didn't know much of love but it came too soon
and there was me and you
and then we got real cool
stay at home talking on the telephone
we'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
and this is how it feels...
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever
so if we get the big jobs
and we make the big money
when we look back now
will our jokes still be funny?
will we still remember everything we learned in school?
still be trying to break every single rule
will little brainy bobby be the stockbroker man?
can heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
i keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
keep on thinking it's a time to fly
and this is how it feels....
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever
(la la la la la la la la……)
(we will still be, friends forever)
will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
can we survive it out there?
can we make it somehow?
i guess i thought that this would never end
and suddenly it's like we're women and men
will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
will these memories fade when i leave this town
i keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
keep on thinking it's our time to fly....
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever
as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change, come whatever
we will still be, friends forever


曾经,我们因为被人抛弃而抱着哭泣
然后一起苦笑曾经的无知
再发现曾经执着的其实也只不过是见微不足道的事

毕业。。。最舍不得的,莫过于曾经一起奋斗的朋友
四年的大学生涯,得到的不止是一张文凭
而是在1460天内萌芽的友谊

我们都希望自己的前途无量
憧憬着我们的25岁,能为自己的事业创下一片天空
有天我们会发现,当咱们不再是青年时,我们还能如昔日般疯狂吗?
数年后,经过社会洗礼的我们,仍会以最真诚的心去看待一切吗?
坚信友谊不变的我们
然而却要为生活打拼而各奔前程
离开了咱们曾经立足的原地后

我们还会回到原点吗?

To all my dearest friends,
It's has been a pleasure to be included as part of your life along the journey...
Nothing last forever, only photo will capture every moment that we had together apart from our friendship...
Thanks for being there~ alwizzzzzzzzz


The 1st ever friend I've made upon entering UM...

Those were the days when we were still naive,
chasing our dreams faithfully...
Though our friendship endures up and down along the journey, yet we are still who we are after 4 years except the grown up 'we'...
May us embrace the friendship that worth cherish...4ver~

Saturday, July 19, 2008

活着吗?

在Old Town Cafe上网的同时,手机也不停地发出熟悉的铃声
如往常般,又忙着发简讯
只是这一次,除了他还有他。。。

看着一对对couple在这儿享用晚餐
不禁发现自己已好久没拖手仔了
怎么最近好像已忘了谈恋爱的感觉
连如何再堕入爱河,我也给忘了
恋爱的甜蜜都好像没单身汉的自由更吸引
一个人的无拘无束
已成了习惯

暧昧好像on and off有的没的
连对象也没有一个定律
暧昧好像少了那份憧憬
不再期待不再盼望
如果一切的曾经突然变成过去
我也无所谓
反正我不是没失去过。。。

一切好像都看淡了
没期望的就不会失望
这样,我还活着吗?

Sunday, June 22, 2008

cross THE line

Life is not always smooth along the way, that's why we need friends to help us go through it by filling up the crevice of life. Undeniably, friends do provide us a shoulder to emotionally lean on, and most of the time, our besties may consist of guys or girls. What if our best friend is the opposite gender from us, would this besties survive if we are engaged in a relationship?

A relationship survives by being transparent to each other, and here comes the importance of playing the TRUST card. You trust whole-heartedly your partner as well as their besties. They share almost everything in life before you appear in his/her life. Your partner love you as much as their freedom. There is no reason for them to stay detach with their buddies, by stating clear the line that they are merely friend, and indeed it is.

However, I can't help but wonder, are they prone to cross the line when they are having conflict with their partner? How often do people cross beyond the line when their partner disappoints them? If there is a line between friendship and a relationship,how distinct would it be? Is hanging out alone with opposite gender buddy consider cross the line when we already attached with someone? I would say no, but do we entirely trust our partner without any curiousity of what they are up with? Do we ever wonder what drive them to have a close bond yet still remain as friend? If they do share every single pieces of life, are you as their bf/gf, still remain exclusive to them? And how do we define exclusivity?
Being a loyal bf/gf, is it trust whole-heartedly on your partner will eventually grant you a happy ending?

Any idea?

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Just A Life

The day begins too soon but the night ends seemingly fast

I am suppose to embrace every single day
to explore the calmness and serenity of the nature
to feel the warmth of sunlight that penetrating through
at times, it can be scorching hot

The day begin too soon
I am suppose to embrace my graduation joyously
it marks the beginning of a new journey
but I am not familiar with the journey, it's not my time yet
My right time will never be arrived
if my mind and pace do not act unanimously

Everyday goes by
Things never change if no significant move is taken
Old habits become prevalence if the intention never clear
What if the first move already become a hurdle?
Would I have the strength and fate to survive?

The night ends seemingly fast
The burden-free life is decided to call it a day
I never realize until my obligation calls

The darkness of the night will soon be lit up
by a day with lightened sky
so as mine
And that's just life...

Sunday, June 15, 2008

9:38pm

又是这个时候

等着那熟悉的声音

来聆听生活的每一天

分享其中的喜怒哀乐

距离几千里,温度却隔着银幕来计算

9:38pm MSN 上线的声音

你听到了吗?

Thursday, June 12, 2008

在家的第十二天

在家的的十二天。。。
生活过得很悠闲,一天三餐温饱,连睡觉发梦也是甜的

最近很享受被关在家的日子,不是看书就是上网,
不然就追戏,美剧港剧样样追
要不就是看在大学里头所拍的相片,从相片中细嚼回忆
原来要打印的相片足以让我钱包流血。。。

最近常从窗外望向那片绿油油的树林与高山
雨天时,高山被层薄薄的白云笼罩着,绝世景色
恐怕下次回来那片树林已被排屋给吞噬了
空气污染,我想也是必然之事

最近看了编文章,很喜欢里头的一番话
因为失恋,而学会了什么叫成长
因为失恋,才会留心去品尝孤单
有一种爱叫做放手,也有一种爱叫珍惜拥有
要为爱而勇敢追寻,也要为爱而找到方向!
失恋后不再接受另一段感情,不是因为怕再被受伤害
而是需要一段时间与自己独处,享受一个人的空间与自由
认识自己,才能追寻适合自己的另一半

最近超悠闲,心灵却增值良多
在酱悠闲下去,我就快变废人 :p

Monday, June 9, 2008

叮当的结局

网上流传很多关于叮当的结局,唯有这 “大雄,我等你很久了” 的结局我最喜欢。因为大雄不再偷懒,而且还自力更生,拼命念书,亲手修好了已耗尽电池的叮当。当我念到大雄按下开关那一刹那,叮当缓缓地说:“大雄,我等你很久了” 时,心中不禁笑了起来,我们熟悉的大雄与叮当终於在一起了。。。

我们往往都希望结局是美好的。当事情不在我们掌握之中时,曾经发生的就会被视为是个成长过程,好让我们更勇敢地面对未来的不如意。我也是这么想。
我只能说两年前太匆促地下了给决定,也因为当年自己的理解能力有点迟钝,不小心地伤了两个朋友。。。事隔多年,他们虽然开玩笑地述说当年,后知后觉的我,却突然有点内疚。
如果当年,我花点时间去考虑,难道今日结局就会有所改变吗?

我不相信神,却深信每个结局是种安排,一种过程,一种成长的机会,也是一种让自己更勇敢追寻心中的另一个世界。。。如果能再从选,我是否会有更明智的选择?而哪个决定才叫明智?
曾发生的,已不重要,肯定的是,今日的结局,我还挺满意的!
因为曾经,我找回了自己。。。

Saturday, June 7, 2008

友谊万岁??

四年的大学生涯终於给划上了句号。四年的同窗、朋友为了前途&钱途已各分东西,而我也开始怀念着四年曾发生的点点滴滴。。。

重翻中学时期所写的班刊,既好笑又遗憾。当时的我们都不会忘了写那句友谊万岁还是友谊永固之类的,要不然就是保持联络。。。然而,离开中学后的四年,又有哪个朋友是真的是友谊万岁呢?
维持一段友谊,谈何容易?遗憾曾经无话不说的朋友,却经不起时间的考验而变成了陌生人。
时间的流逝,我们也渐渐成长,十多岁追求的或许与二十多岁追求有所差异,曾经要好的朋友也因为彼此之间的想法有所分差,友情逐渐退色。。。
当然还有些仍能保持一见如故的中学朋友,对於这些仍能交心的朋友,我深感激。

大学的四年,因为你们,为我这四年增添了灿烂的一页。毕业旅行或许已是我们最后一次的相聚,与你们的一切一切,相片会保留着我们的回忆。


*谢谢这一路来陪我走过那段日子的他和她。。。alwiz mis u guys!

Friday, April 25, 2008

怎样

我这里天快要黑了 那里呢
我这里天气凉凉的 那里呢
我这里一切都变了 我变的懂事了
我又开始写日记了 而那你呢
我这里天快要亮了 那里呢
我这里天气很炎热 那里呢
我这里一切都变了 我变的不哭了
我把照片也收起了 而那你呢
如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是深爱着对方
像开始时那样
握着手就算天快亮
我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是隐瞒着对方
像结束时那样
明知道你没有错
还硬要我原谅

我不会原谅
我怎么原谅

这里一切真的都变了。。。
思念已不是一回事
对於你的一切,回忆开始便得模糊了
连想起你也是种奢侈

我也变得懂事了
对爱
不再执着
不再憧憬
也不再期待

你曾经给的已不重要
你带走的我终於明白

说什么朋友
其实也只不过是个假想
说什么原谅
我也办不到
因为我不懂怎样原谅。。。

Saturday, March 8, 2008

How long can a past relationship haunt your life?

外面下着场大雨
如果雨水能冲走那些腐烂的回忆,我的世界或许不会再有任何污垢
或许我会更放纵地去爱。。。

确实地,我从旧的回忆走了出来
也足足花了一百二十天
一个不长却不短的日子。。。

没有你的世界,i must admit, it never been better than before

我的世界多了不少人,也多了个默契十足的那个他
原来那个他都热爱着我所爱
原来我与他都一样
原来我都会怀念与他相处的点点滴滴。。。

只是近来,你的旧回忆如海浪般涌进我脑海
真的,我真的习惯了过没有你的生活。。。
只是当我试着开始走入他人的世界时
对你的阴影又渐渐地浮现,犹如冤鬼般,挥之不散

阴影,让我不再对爱怀着最初的憧憬
爱似乎变成了一个美丽的陷阱
Or am I being cynical?

何时,我才不会被那些阴影缠身呢?
原来习惯过一个人的生活不代表我已摆脱你的阴影。。。

Thursday, February 28, 2008

一瞥

世界真的很小 还是我仍离不开这地方
总在那个地方碰面

这一次,你的存在,我根本不晓得
或许你的目光已逗留了许久。。。我没察觉

那一瞥,或许只想打个招呼
或许只想远远地看着被你抛弃的我。。。我永远不懂

从你眼神 我看到了你的惊讶
惊讶地发现你眼珠里反映的
已不再是以前的我

这一瞥,我看到了我要的肯定
因为我值得 !

Sunday, January 27, 2008

悄悄地

趁一切还没萌芽前

悄悄地离去

静静地 连脚步也是无声的

消失于茫茫人海中
或许没人发现

至少我还有我自己


与这份友谊

Friday, January 25, 2008

等待

八年前
不愿永远待在那小岛
选择了离乡背井
带着一股十五年累积的勇气
寻找属於自己的小小世界

前四年
曾拥有的天空
或许已慢慢被取代
曾经的精采
只能在回忆里回味

后来的四年
开始展开翅膀
飞到一个充斥霓虹灯的世界
这里有着千百种人
真诚与虚伪
已经分不清
开始追随着曾经的单纯

曾经在这里建立的小小世界
因梦想而伟大
这里上演了曾经的小幸福
也带来了曾经的痛
回忆的风景不再有味道也不再痛
却烙印了曾经的创伤

四年的路程
结束了吗?等待续集?
唯有等待着属於自己的天空
或许有一秒
会是我的天堂
一个允许我梦想起步的世界



Sunday, January 20, 2008

Break Up Rule │分手定律

"The most important breakup rule is no matter who broke your heart or how long it take to heal, you never get through it,without a friend. "
Quoted from Carrie Bradshaw's renowned column 'Sex and The City'

没错,要从分手的后遗症好起来,不是借酒浇愁或是花钱逛街,我们最需要的是个知心朋友, 那怕只剩下一个,一个愿意借我们耳朵的朋友。他们或许只是局外人,但他们在我们最失意时的出现,虽然只是静静地在旁聆听,却已经是给予我们最大的鼓励与支持。

不善於表达的朋友,会很慷慨地借我们他们的肩膀,好让我们哭得无法抬起头时,仍有个叫 ‘朋友的肩膀’ 在支撑着…

曾经经历感情沧桑的朋友,会轻轻的摇头,然后说现在的一切悲伤也只不过是人生中的小部分,数年后,我们或许会傻笑当年的执着。当初所谓的痛不欲生也只不过是我们的不愿意而已,不愿接受曾经的他/她已不再爱你,不愿说服自己去接受改变不了的事实,更不愿相信自己没了所谓的他其实可以活得比昔日更精采!

真正的朋友,会毫无顾虑地痛骂我们的自暴自弃,他们或许很无情,但最痛的安慰也是最有效的觉悟方法。为什么我们要为了一个不再爱我们的人,放弃了最原始的自己呢?在他们还没出现前,我们不是过得好好的?所以世上绝对不是没有了某某人而活得没意义,须知我们被带到这世界的时候,其实也是一个人。

曾经,我的朋友在考试期间,借我他的肩膀,陪我度过了我最难熬的final exam。

曾经,我的朋友以很婉转的口气敲醒了我。我还记得他曾说过,“其实你原本就是个坚强的女孩,为什么我现在却看不见那个倔强的女孩呢?” 因为他的这一番话,我终於找回了自己。

曾经,我的朋友劝我不须刻意去忘记他,因为越想忘记一个人,那个人其实更根深蒂固地在我脑海里。因为他的那句话,我不再因想他而觉得是一种出卖。他说得没错,当我不想尽办法忘记那个他时,他其实早已从我回忆里消失了。

曾经,有个朋友甚至叫我掴对方一巴掌,好让自己好过点,呵呵~ 其实,让自己最好过的莫过于不再在乎对方。当他突然出现在你面前,而你对于他的出现,心中不再掀起任何涟漪时,相反的,却可以很平静的从他身边经过,然后不再回头望,因为更适合自己的另一伴,只有在我们勇于往前看后才会发现。

当你与朋友们相聚时的话题不再围绕着那个他时,你已经可以存在在没有他的世界,因为那个他对你而言已不再是一回事了。

的确,分手最主要的定律是我们都需要朋友,没有他们就不会有现在的我们。因为朋友的存在,我得到的其实比我失去的更多!

Friday, January 4, 2008

2008┃Journey of Self Discovery

The ending of 2007 marks the beginning of a brand new era - 2008. It is a year worth anticipating and should be kick off with joy and hope, be filled with an abundance of health, hope, dreams and success.

2008 is never been more significant than previous year. 2008 symbolize the starting point of my self discovery journey. A journey to truly explore my desire and passion, to love the things that i love and of course to enjoy the BEST in me.

What I have been through previous year had finally come to an end. The agony of lost, the devastation of being betrayed, the despair of what had occurred... is no longer to be mourned for. These melancholy will be viewed as a growing stage, a compulsory stage experienced by all of us to equip ourselves with strength and courage in order to better prepare us for future uncertainties. Not to mention that this stage is definitely transforming myself into a better person besides wiping off those fragile part of me.

I can feel it now...the light of hope...it finally penetrate through the 2007 grieving cloud...this light will be my light of guidance throughout 2008, From now onwards, I'll embark on my journey full-heartedly...leaving behind a significant footprint for every path that I have taken.

Enjoy what had been through, embrace it, discard and proceed.
Let's embrace 2008 with TRIUMPH!!!